Hello, Erikank. I know this has come up before, but have you been able to talk to a counselor or doctor about what's going on?
Your introductory post is full of the kinds of symptoms that, if they go on long enough, would make me think it wise to get screened for depression
and for those conditions (thyroid problems, anemia, etc.) that can mimic depression.
And how's your sleep?
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My dog

mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.