Hey guys. thanks for the responses.

I am in the process of getting unemployment. But with the difficulties I have been having with that I did some research and according to a lot of people posting online the system is basically crippled. Phone system not working or cutting off calls.

Online job search submission is broken. I have done the required work for 2 checks and cannot even get a hold of anyone on the phone. I get put on hold for 1+ hours or I get a message saying they are so busy that I need to call back later and then it hangs up. I am trying not to get upset.

I live in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan in Gladstone.

My family is helping me as much as they can, I HATE asking for help. I would rather be homeless and I think that is what is going to happen. The thought of needing to move in with a relative at this point in my life is almost to much to think about.

Our mental health service here is very very poor. I have no vehicle. I have about $35 to my name.

I need to be seen by a psychiatrist, have needed it for years but I cannot find one who will help someone without money or insurance.

I can now see why people give up and do horrible things. Every avenue for help requires money and a lot of people dont have money.

I would not ask for a handout, just help to get my mind right. I am falling into a pit I am scared I may not be able to climb out of.