Well, it's not like sex is any different I've come to find out. I'm completely neutral about that as well. I don't find it gross or bad or anything…it's just nothing more than masturbating while another person happens to be present. I guess I'll never understand why I have such a strong urge to be a sex toy for a night. Especially since I can't ever orgasm anymore, so the only pleasure I'll ever get from it is getting my partner to orgasm. It's sort of just cruel…I can just be strongly aroused with no hope of release ever.