So sorry to hear about your loss muaythailady, sweetmadness, and atomicc. It's very hard to have to lose someone so gentle.
I've lost a poor kitten to toxio, it's rare but it cruelly picked my little baby. I was desperate and took an immense amount of photographs to just make sure he was truly gone...at that point, he wasn't. I have a photo of his little face. I feel he is always with me, saving all my little foster babies from facing similar fates. Thank you so much for sharing and letting me have a place to mourn and feel not so alone. Much love to all of you, and all of your loved ones. Thank you again.