Hey everyone,

I found this site just two days ago and I'm so grateful for the support.

My emotions have been crazy, well they have for a long time, but lately they've been off the chain. I had a brief moment of relief and hope today. I did things to take steps forward and get out of this mess I've made. I'm afraid of things getting worse because its been a steady decline for so long. My emotions consume me most of the time. I still don't know how to get them under control. Also I haven't been around anyone, and social interactions always trigger thoughts of paranoia, distrust, self consciousness, feeling screwed up and not normal, afraid to get close because I'm afraid they will hurt me and when I let someone in, my intense emotions scare people away and exhaust them. I feel I have no control over them, and sadness and loneliness suck the life out of me. I have to keep trying though. Many other people have found a way, I need to hold onto that hope.