Hi. I'm Michelle. I was just recently diagnosed as bipolar type 1 on new years eve. I'm 19. It's been an absolute hell... I had to leave my job cuz of the frequent break downs at work (psychosis, severe depression) now I'm just not getting anywhere. I don't have the motivation to do anything, but I also don't want to be stuck in my house all day doing nothing. I have no idea why I'm even here. I just need hugs or a pep talk or two :/ suicide isn't an option for me, even when I was almost hospitalized for severe depression. I've been depressed since the beginning of december, which yeah I know it before my diagnosis, but my mom noticed signs before then too. I was pretty manic for a good 9 months last year now I've just crashed and I feel like a failure... no job, not going to school, still living with my parents. idk what to do.