Hello Hazelgirl. I just wanted to let you know you how much your posts have helped me. You have amazing empathy. Just think how you would respond to someone else posting this? Also wanted to add that I feel so much of what you wrote in your post, actually I relate to everything. It is reassuring to know I am not alone in these feelings but I am sorry you are going through this. Thank you for sharing. It is good to let it out. Take good care of yourself, Hazelgirl.