Hello erikank, unfortunately Im going through the same things. Im in my second year of college and its been a living hell for me. I too got excellent grades in my first year then come second, I totally F*cked up. I have major depression and lately its been hard to just get out of bed. I get wanting to be alone, yelling at your friends, feeling the pressure to be more active in school. Sadly I can not tell you how to make things easier than maybe see a therapist to talk out your frustrations. Im here if you want to talk. Hope things get a little brighter!