Yes, Pilatus, I HATE that I'm related to my "father" who abused me.

He took away my life. My self-esteem. Everything. And I hate him for that, and I hate my family for sticking by him.

You know what else I hate? When people say, "Oh, your dad is so nice." Or, "You are __'s daughter? Cool." I'm thinking, yeah, right, if you only knew......

I really don't know how to deal w/ it anymore. I am going to move away. And hopefully cut my losses & start over.

Maybe change my last name, too......that might help.

Hugs.

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