First I hope I don't say anything I'm not supposed to, if I do I apologize. New at this....

I try to understand why things have happened the way they have, and yes I get angry with God. I have not been able to breathe for 16 years. They say he doesn't give us more than we can handle right? I'm not so sure anymore. What did I do to deserve this? I failed Him somewhere and have lost almost every blessing I had. I think I'm getting blessings but they are always taken away or I mess them up. They say we reap what we sow. I know so many people that get blessing after blessing and have done horrible things. My step father, for instance hasn't had consequences for all he did to me and what he caused. He has escaped consequences and still as he did before goes to church and prays. He still gets blessings. I have heard that God will welcome anyone back, no matter the sin, forgive them and bless them. That kind of makes me angry, because He doesnt do that anymore in my life. I went through so much and it continues. I've made mistakes of course, some big ones, but the consequences seemed extremely harsh for those mistakes and I had to bear the pain of others mistakes plus my own. I need mercy. I'm tired of being so miserable. Every time I was struck down and got back up, I was struck again. Right now things can't be fixed, at least not any time soon, I try to have faith and was feeling a little hopeful earlier but was told, I have to have the rest of my teeth pulled (15) and get dentures. I just turned 27. Im in so much pain. I took care of them but treatment I had has caused them to decay beyond repair. I'm extremely depressed and not having much faith, have in the past, but not now. I am back to giving up on life and faith. They say there is power in prayer, so if anyone would pray for me, I'd greatly appreciate it. Not just the phrase, but actually intercede. Thank you