Today was pretty terrible. There was a situation with a patient at work which was very difficult, and a lot of arguing and accusations among staff. There was a big meeting, and I was getting accused of not caring and some other accusations, which were not true. I'm doing my best with the patient, but it is an ethically difficult situation. It felt awful to have my motives questioned in front of a group of people, even though I believe I did the right thing. Then I got a passive aggressive email from another nurse on my team, which I also didn't deserve.

Then I had to have a meeting with the disability manager at work, because every 3 months they sit me down and question me about my mental health because I was hospitalized a couple years ago. So that's always humiliating. They pretend that they are questioning because they care, but really they are just worried about liability - and I have never had any performance issues. I hate being discriminated against because of mental illness.

So after that I felt totally overwhelmed and like I was going to cry. I'm doing my best, and it seemed like today that wasn't good enough for anyone. Plus I'm still depressed, so I'm taking things too personally anyway.

Also, I stopped Straterra last night, and I'm feeling kind of strange adjusting.

fml