Hey everyone, I'm new to this site. I was stumbling across the internet, trying to find someone to talk to, and I found this. I'm scared to sound like a whiny teenage girl here, but here goes.

I've recently been noticing weird habits that I have, and beyond that, disturbing..visuals that pop into my head. I've had them for about 2 years, but until recently, I didn't think anything about it. The habits are very number-oriented, usually with me clicking my nails a certain amount of times until it feels right, or biting away the inside of my mouth in a pattern.

The worst part, however, is these..visions. It's really starting to distract from my schoolwork, and even my social life. They usually deal with terrible things, with lots of blood, and often sexual acts. Example...in class yesterday, I suddenly had a vision of myself slitting my arms wide open and smearing the blood all over the class walls. The most disturbing part is that in many of these, I'm killing people.

You have to understand, this isn't a cry for help. My main goal here is to get an opinion on whether or not I should seek some sort of help, or if I should wait. I'm...unbelievably scared to talk to my parents about it. I don't think they would understand. I've tried off handedly telling them about some of my number obsessions, but so far they've only laughed. My mom told me that I've always had them, and she used to get mad at me because I wouldn't stop doing them, particularly on stage when I was acting.

So...thank you, and if you need more descriptions on my "condition", just ask. It feels nice to have somewhere to vent. Opinions on what the hell is wrong with me would be appreciated.