I can totally relate! My so kola thick ex has bullied and humiliated me for years. We were high school sweethearts and although I have had other relationships since, I always end up falling back into his trap. 3 days ago he turned on me again, sending me pics of a new woman in his life, telling me he hated me, doesn't care about me and called me some horrific names to boot. Thing is I just can't let him go! Why? He is the only person who has made me feel so rubbish about myself. He was telling me he loved me and that I was his best friend only a week ago and now he's telling me he loves this new girl and texting me saying how fantastic the sex is with her. It's left me not only jealous but feeling like there's something wrong with me, like I'm ugly and worthless. So why can't I just let him go? Why do I still want him? Any advice you have would be much appreciated