Hi winterglen, first of all let's get away from this "laziness and selfishness"!!
When we're talking about it being too hard and exhausting "laziness and selfishness" play no part in that at all!!
Now, looking for a job CAN seem like a massive task, but you DID make a start. You started on the application form, that's great!! It's a real start!!
Now maybe it would help if you stopped focusing so much on what you're "supposed to be doing" e.g networking there, there and there, and focus a little more on what you can/feel able to do???
So perhaps some real small goals for now e.g. getting an application form and working on completing it every week (??) then build a little on them???
And "asking for jobs" you don't think you're "good enough for": there will be a job you're more than good enough for (although you don't know without trying) but I'm wondering if you might be "selling yourself short", maybe overlooking your qualities, strengths, talents a little there?
And if a job looks just a little beyond you, maybe consider how could be once you've had a bit of an induction, practice, a settling in period, and develop your skills whilst doing it- everyone has to start somewhere.
But are there any agencies/government support who could help you in searching for/finding a job?? If there are that may help.
But you know, it can sometimes be real tough going through all the processes of finding a job, so I'd say don't loose the priority of focusing on yourself and feeling better about YOU.
To a point a job is kind of secondary, so if there's anything you can think of to use/find to make your life/feelings better (other than a job) right now, then that should be just as much up there on your list.
Best wishes
Alison