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Originally Posted by I.Am.The.End.
I've chosen, but was it the right decision?
Well, the guy may think I'm fat, but not too fat to bang. But then, I'm a lot more attractive to someone who's been drinking. It's just science.
It would have made me feel better if I hadn't have ended up banging him in the end.
At least I've had some sort of sexual experience before I died. Oh well, he got what he wanted in the end and I get nothing in return except knowing that at least he was happy. But in the back of my mind, I feel one's first love shouldn't have began and ended like this, but there's nothing I can do. At least I've learned my lesson—if I'm going to love someone (which I hope never to again), make sure they never know so they don't milk it for everything it's worth and go back to waiting for the girl that dumped him.
How can I either love and respect myself? Really, how can I?
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Honey, You did what you did for love. If His motives weren't as pure, HE should be the one who's ashamed, NOT YOU! Sometimes we kiss a few frogs trying to find our Prince Charming, only to find that they're STILL JUST FROGS! We just have to throw them back into the pond. But the right one is out there! Don't let this bad experience keep you from finding him. In time you will heal, & another opportunity to find love will present itself. If he is capable of making you feel this bad then he's not worthy of you sweetheart! The man YOU DESERVE would Never make you feel this way about yourself! Give yourself some credit for being the better person. This bad is on him, not you!