I know easier said than done, but don't put yourself in harms way. What will come of it? You will get hurt. Go to therapy to work through this but you deserve better for yourself.

I haven't been in a relationship for a long time. I sometimes worry that I'll end up alone. For some reason I keep thinking I'll be an old lady with 10 cats even though I don't like cats. I recently started seeing someone who knows if it will go anywhere, but it gives me hope that someone is out there for me.

Do what's best for you.