Do you feel like you on a teeter toter??

I sincerely do not even know HOW I feel right now. A part of me feels fine, and a part of me is just waiting for my world to collapse. Like I should be feeling suicidal, but I really do not. Yet at the same time my gut wants to FLEE. To fly down the highway and crash into a wall or something.

life sucks.

and I am just waiting to see which way the teeter toter tips.