i finally came to the conclusion that "procrastination", or more aptly: inertness, is part of the brain damage i suffered. it only makes sense to me, that if i used to have it, then something happened, and i don't have that anymore, then it was taken, lost, gone~

i am still struggling with a lack of initiative. if i get to do even 2 things that i want to, in a day, i think it's a good day~ i too found it much easier when there was someone else with me... i called it Psychic Hitchhiking. what really burns my toast is to have that paralysis called "Lazy". it's not laziness, and i begin to wonder if there even is such a thing...

acknowledging the need for supports and accommodations is entirely appropriate~! don't beat yourself up~! if there is no one to help you, give yourself some kindness, offer yourself a reward if you just get up and start... (i find that often if i start i can keep going).

best wishes~
Gus