I know your right. I am just a bit bitter, i guess. I am the eternal optomist, so i know that there is still good in everyone. I am however, having a hard time excusing their behaviour this time; which leads me to believe any good that is left in them will never be directed towards me. Or maybe i am wrong, perhaps this was the way they let me go, so that i could be happy, without them? Knowing, they would only continually let me down and break my heart time and time again? Who knows?

I hate that I was affected again. I should have known better. I knew this would be the final conclusive onslaught, i was just hoping that i would be wrong, this time and I wasn't.