I am the same way. I just let him have his way with me. I might as well just give it to him. Like you I don't want him to stray. I am almost 40. We have been married 20 years. I just don't like sex. The fluids thing I totally get. It is yucky at the moment, and I am the one who has to deal with the aftermath the following day or two. I have depression and I take meds for it. I know that those medications totally killed my sex drive. I had little drive to begin with, but they killed what was left.

Just know that you are not alone. I hope my sex drive comes back one day, I think, or that it never does and my H is happy being a monk. Cause I could care less if we ever did it again. Wishing you the best with this issue. My thoughts are with you, I totally get how you feel. I'm sorry.