for the first time in my life im considering self harm but im scared and weak and cosardly as with everything. i keep a knife in my room out of safety and paranoia, in the eventof a burglary (have done this for years) but now i am thinking of using it to hurt myself im and scared. im weak, im not sure what to do... the thoughts scwre me, honestly, but i keep thinking of grabbing that knife and just making some cuts in my shoulder so no one will see