I want you to understand how upset I am at the moment. I know your advice is trying to help me, but what I really want is for you to just say that everything is going to be okay and you believe that I will be able to work it out. I don't believe I can, and I need someone else to believe in me. It isn't about practical solutions (although those are nice). It's about being confident in myself that I can solve these problems. Right now, I'm not. I feel out of control and like things are caving in on me. I want to just crawl back to my mom's house, where I will be subtly manipulated and guilted forever. It's easier than trying to figure out life on my own. I want to run away from all of the difficulties that life has in it, and go back to pretending that things are okay, even when they aren't.
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HazelGirl
PTSD, Depression, ADHD, Anxiety
Propranolol 10mg as needed for anxiety, Wellbutrin XL 150mg
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