I don't know if it's because of my illness or if I genuinely don't want to talk to people.
My issues stem from being ignored/ talked over/ having my feelings trivialized etc. during childhood and now.
At home I find myself not wanting to talk/ be talked to. I hardly talk to others online because I don't understand social things and what's acceptable.
I had a best friend that after I moved away I kept in contact with. We constantly got in arguments and she'd tell me I was angry or something when I wasn't, and I'd get angry after her insisting.
Recently I (non offensively, calmy and respectfully) called someone out on a social website for being ableist. We had a back and forth until they said "I would love for you to explain. .. I am not trying to be an ***** I want to see your point of view" and when I responded respectfully again, they made a post saying they were tired of me and I was deliberately misunderstanding and twisting their words. A *somewhat* similar event happened on here. I don't know how to deal with it.
I'm being told that I'm twisting peoples words and mis-construing things when I understand what they said completely, especially when I'm educated about the issue, and I always try to respond respectfully. It may not seem like much, but I truly feel horrible about it.
When it happens it reminds me of being emotionally abused and criticized, and my brain can't tell the difference if I am or not.

I genuinely want to connect with people and make friends, but things like this make me want to give up.
I'm not seeing my t right now for communication issues@, and wonder if there's a class or something I can do to get better with this.

Sent using Tapatalk 2