Is it possible I find kissing/sex boring because I was drunk? It's not like I don't want to enjoy it and it's not like I'm not attracted to them/aroused. It's just…well, boring.

I guess my point is that is it always going to be like this? And if it is, why do I have an urge to do it again? It's so unfulfilling. It's like wanting it so badly just to be always very disappointed.