I am so sorry to hear this. ): It is very difficult to handle this, and I can't exactly speak from experience just yet (though, if my diagnosis turns out to be true, then I will fully understand this soon). Just the thought, however, of thinking that this might happen, I am already thinking like this and can somewhat relate. It is very scary to think that you might never feel 'normal' again. I really wish you the best and I am sure you are very strong. (: You never asked for this, but all we can do is make the best of what we have.