i do not think you are gay. I think your hormones are raging and you are curious about sex. Mix that with a group of people who have an agenda of increasing their population - and you are being sucked into something that probably isn't you.

I think it is very normal to be uncomfortable about your body, but my guess is your bod is no worse than 90% of the people out there. There IS a girl for you - just try to be patient and you will find a girl you likes you just as you are.

If you can change your focus from sex to fun (ie hobby or just goofing around) I think you will find a gf and things will progress naturally. But if you focus on sex - you will be sucked down into a hole that you can not escape.

Gods blessings to you no matter how it turns out for you.