Increased my new antidepressant back up to the dose I was prescribed- I could barely function on the smaller dose and was in a constant state of panic. Now I'm teetering on the brink of mania. I know this because I feel like I am in a cartoon, and I am watching everything but not participating. Everyone's feet look way too big, cars seem to float by, and I suddenly think I can sing. This is ok, I know it is depersonalization, but then it morphs to quickly into extreme agitation and I just have to get away and be alone. I lose track of time so easily. I drive to work and look down to see I am going 90 mph but it feels so slow. I can't reach a balance. I don't know if I want to be balanced, though. Every minute is different- it's exilarating and terrifying at the same time.