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Can I just say WOW!!!

I am so touched by all of your responses and heartfelt comments! I'm trying to type through tears here. Thank you all so very much for reaching out to me. You have no idea what it means to me.

Please accept my apology for being so selfish. I could not see the connections I made. I now see how foolish I was to think that I was all alone. I have always been a strong woman. Lately, I have felt weak and my strength has evaded me. It has colored my perceptions to the point that I cannot see what is right in front of me.

I have never been one to ask for help. I have always had a hard time with accepting help. I've always been the one to be strong and give help and support when needed or asked for. Having the shoe on the other foot is new territory for me. Instead of swallowing this damned pride of mine and reaching out, I tried to turn away and put up the wall that I worked so hard at tearing down. Old habits die hard I guess.

Everyone has been wonderful to me. There is no doubt about that. I realize that I would miss you all very much if I were to leave. I need you in my life to help me get through the days and lonely nights. I need you to teach me how to ask for help and accept it when it's offered. I need to you to kick me in the arse and open my eyes to what the truth is.

A million thank you's to all of you for being the loving, caring idividuals you are. You are all special, and I am blessed to have you in my life!