So as everyone who has been following me already knows, I'm struggling in DBT. I'm also struggling with my trauma therapist. I asked LCM if she thinks I need a new TT. She said no. She said she thinks that I am experiencing some sort of attachment to her because I am so aggressive about saying that I feel nothing and that when she couldn't make it last Monday, I was (in her opinion based on what I wrote about it right after it happened) quite upset about it. She thinks that I need to talk to her about my problems regarding the building and my problems regarding the train at 5pm.

I'm having a similar issue with DBT. I hate it. I think the material is stupid. But I know I don't actually feel like the material is stupid. I actually feel like I am stupid. Too stipid to be able to improve. I'm scared that the reason I'm not responding to the treatment is because I can't be fixed so I attack the subject matter hoping to convince myself that problem isn't me. But it is and I don't know how to change my thoughts regarding this and also probably my thoughts regarding TT. I'm making self fulfilling prophecies.