So loveliness things had to happen of course during my breaking down of being in this relationship. I seem to have fallen for my best-friend, it may have always been there but i either just pushed it aside or didn't notice it yet. At the moment i totally aware of everything. Sucky part is breaking up with my boyfriend at the moment, but unfortunately they have become close friends. Lovely, Lovely indeed, so even if i do become single again, i won't be able to have him. But i guess at least i still have him as a friend. I'd rather loose the possibility of us might being together than loosing my best-friend. Lovely.
Whats even bothering me the most is, i keep feeling hurt and wanting to cry and need to constantly be on the move or doing something. All i want now is to just be close to him. Can happen but, what'll happen after the break-up, worst fear. I guess we'll still be close but that's as close as we'll be.