It is very tough to see clearly when you are in the midst of a crisis.. You did the right thing by posting here. You need to leave this relationship, and do it ASAP. You will continue to get the help and support you need right here from folks who care and who have successfully broken free of their abusers. He is not going to change... ever... but you already are, by coming here. Keep coming back and telling us what's happening and how you are....