During many time I thought that having a boyfriend would be something good to me. I dreamed about that, about being loved, understood and able to trust someone.
But, ye, right! I came to a point where I understand I'm not good for anyone. I don't want to fall in love, I don't want to give that impression...And specially I don't want anybody to like me in that way...It just won't work.
I made myself comfortable with the idea that I will be alone for ever, that I will be single all my life. I guess it's for the best.
But in the end it makes me feel down, of course everybody wants love, and I did want it very much. But in some way it's impossible for me to be hearthless, I wish I could.