From what I've read, after initially being a little wishy-washy with you, she's now made it quite clear that she will not be seeing you anymore, period. I'd resist further attempts to contact her in any way, shape or form. It might end badly for you if you continue doing so.

That's a pretty hard hit to take but it's time to pick yourself up, dust yourself off and find another therapist that can help you process this fact, accept this fact, and move on.

I gotta be honest with you, I feel that if I were the former therapist, I would be very close to notifying authorities ... I'm not sure if it would be because I was concerned for your safety, my safety, or both.

Sincerely,
Pfrog!