Awe, I can relate. This is par for the course doing trauma work, in my personal experience and that I've heard from others. My suggestion, since you asked, is to go in and ask for a lighter session or one focused on a single topic you feel you can manage, maybe your ed acting up, or something smaller as needed. It's very important to maintain balance in trauma work- alternating between intense, wrenching, agitating sessions, and more manageable, lighter ones to normalize your feelings and the relationship, so I would hope that might help you feel better. Trauma is all about being out of control. But now, in therapy, you have the control, so you can take breaks, go at your pace, call the shots, and at the same time, trust your therapist to be honest with you about wanting to be there and not minding your disclosures or non-disclosures when you struggle. You're NOT a waste of her time!