Oh no sorry you're feeling so down about it tonight. It must be so frustrating the gestalt woman isn't working out...do you think you could discuss it with her and see if she could 'meet you where you are' a bit more and be less confrontational? Or do you think it's definitely a personality clash/ bad therapeutic fit?

If there are no other potentials in your area, or even if you're just exhausted trying to find one and want a break - what about online therapy for a little while just to tide you over and see how you get on with it?