I'm feeling super manic right now- or maybe really hypomanic? So far I've convinced myself that I don't have bipolar disorder and should just take up yoga instead. Then I realized that I probably do have bipolar disorder because I've been so freaking happy today. Then I wrote someone to tell them how much I admire them and how much their friendship means to me. Then I repressed the urge to write everyone I know and tell them how much I love them. Then I cut my own hair. (It turned out pretty well, actually). And now I wish there were people to talk to because I feel happy and social.

But, underneath the happiness, I also feel a little out of control, and that feeling is not pleasant. How do you handle a manic episode? I could self medicate with sleeping pills or just let it run its course...

I visited my GP today, but she said that she didn't feel comfortable prescribing medication for bipolar disorder. So I guess I'll just have to wait until my psychiatrist visit in May. I hope my mood doesn't get too bad before then.