I feel completely out of it but overwhelmed at the same time. Im very confused very easily, I worry I am a danger to myself but I dont know why, Im just obsessed with wanting to SH. But there is no real reason for it, just I guess I just want to do it through desperation. I cant think straight, my thoughts trail off midway through, I get distracted and want to ground myself through pain. My appetite has come back though, but Im not happy about that cos I cant afford food, nor petrol to get to the shops, nor can I walk for long periods of time. I did an hour of weeding this morning and now I am completely wiped out. My friends are trying to be supportive but I cant hold a conversation, Im flat and retarded so Im embarrassed to see them, but I dont want to keep rejecting offers of socialising so I dont get isolated. Im so confused.