I'm new to this site. I'm 18 and during the past year i've been experiencing bipolar disorder symptoms. It's recently gotten worse and I am so confused and i don't even know what normal is. sometimes i just stop and think im going completely crazy. My dad and my aunt have bipolar disorder, we all know it for sure but they have never been diagnosed. My moods change dramatically, for awhile i will feel like the happiest person in the world, i am so lucky to have this life, i'm so smart i know everything about everything, my future is going to be amazing, etc. And then the next day or the next week, i feel like everything sucks theres no reason for me to be here, nobody understands me or loves me, i'm stupid i will never amount to anything..... etc. Sometimes i get really really angry, to the point where i cannot control anything i say or do.... and i've gotten in fights with my boyfriend and i've hit him in multiple situations... He sees the manic depression in me a lot because his dad has it. We've talked about how i need to get help but im just scared and confused and don't know how to get help! im always taking screening tests online and looking up information and i found this site today, and i thought with the support and help of others i will go get help.
any comments or suggestions would be great : ]