Yes, it IS nice. I used to imagine myself tearing down the bookshelves and things so T would HAVE to restrain me but it would up with me crying and her comforting me. In the fantasy, it never ocurred to me to simply ASK to be held or comforted! When I finally got up the courage to allow T to hold my hand, and then to ask her for it when I wanted to, it was kind of amazing. I could ask and she would touch me, without having to create a disturbance for it to happen. Not that I created disturbances in RL, but in the fantasy I had to because I couldn't directly ask to be held.