Hi freefall, you sound exhausted. or maybe its just me feeling exhausted from listening to your description of your life. sounds like a lot on your plate.

your anxiety is wearing you down probably. you deserve to feel better. have you shared your feelings with anyone? husband, family member, friend? therapist? you sound really overwhelmed.

sometimes vocalizing and sharing the load can really help.

sounds like you are a very strong woman, and you have accomplished a lot, so don't forget that. and sounds to me like you have earned a meltdown, lucky you! so take care of yourself, I hope you feel better soon.

Hugs from Ontario Canada