I feel that so much I have done over the years for myself has been a lot of mistakes. I feel like I have been punished in life because I made some wrong choices. I felt like I was doing the right things such as getting a job, the area I live at, and the condo that I had purchased. Yet I felt like I was being punished for doing things like drugs, heavy drinking, and being abusive to women - to which I have not done those things.

Oh yes, many years ago I met a girl that I was in love with and she felt the same way about me. That was when I was in my teens. She had to leave the area after a few months we were going together. After that it was not the same and we went our separate ways. We got together and it was off-and-on. And then one time she proposed to me. I turned her down because I felt like I was too young. Plus I felt like she was not dependable. Some years later, I ended up regretting it. I tried to look her up but never found her.

And now I feel like I want to sell the condo that I live at and move out. The reason is that the people that I am surrounded by are not friendly. It seemed like lately the place had changed. For a number of years from when I first moved into my place, I met some nice people. But now it's changed. It seems like now the people are just coming and going. So that makes it hard to get to know people.

I hope this had answered your question.