Its been 3 years since I have cut myself...
lately my depression has got really bad and I have been having thoughts of cutting or committing suicide..
I haven't tried either but its just so hard to keep having these thoughts...
I am just tired of suffering through this pain...
I know I am not the only one..
The numbness, the depression... hopelessness..
My intrusive thoughts and anxiety have gotten worse as well and I am just so tired of it all...
I called the crisis hotline tonight 3 times and ended up hanging up each time because I feel so pathetic calling. The idea of telling your problems over the phone has been so hard to grasp I never do I have a therapist for that..

any advice on how to distract?