Unfortunately I think we have all had experiences, both online and in real life where people have been less than supportive. But I do want to encourage you that there are also people out there who will understand and support you through this. When you are ready they can be a great comfort.

It is terrifying to begin to open up about any past abuse, especially something that can bring back so many confusing thoughts and emotions but you are doing amazingly well starting by sharing here with us. It's ok if you're not ready to share more - it's all in your own time But if you ever want to share more here we are always happy to listen and give shoulder to lean on when you need it.

The stories of abuse don't always tell the full story. There are a lot of people who have conflicting or positive reactions. It is a way that our bodies naturally react physically and emotionally it is often a way of trying to protect yourself from the trauma and negative emotions. There is definitely nothing wrong with you for reacting the way you did. I know that some people may not understand that but it is normal. Forgiveness and moving forward takes a lot of time and work but be gentle with yourself. You are making great steps forward and starting that journey. You can get there

Also, if you ever want to talk privately please feel free to contact me. No pressure if you don't want to, but I'm always happy to listen.