I know how that is....I have that too...and I worry that if I give in to the want/need to get the nurturning from others that I will suck them dry or drive them away and feel ashamed that I can't nurture myself...I can't trust my own opinions about things...I can't believe on my own that I am a good person...so I can't build up my self esteem because I don't believe what I tell myself is true.
It is a HARD thing to change.
ANd it feels HUGE I know. the deep want to be cared about and reassured and affirmed.