I know all of you are right...I know I know. I really do. I just wanted to hear it from people who've probably experienced them (or something close) like this. I've felt dirty ever since this has began and now I'm wishing it would just go away and I could be with my Brian and have no guilt or worries.

I've once dissed the wingman before, he claimed he was going to come here and take me from this place. I've told him he'd ruin my life if he did that and he states "I couldn't let go without a fight". So pretty much it's put me in a very awkward position. I've began this and obvisiouly risked my family doing so. I'm beginning to thing that maybe I have no choice but to tell Brian, but when that does happen I might be out on my ***...I hope not.

The situation has gotten old quick and obviously I know where I need to be (and want to be) and that's at home with my husband, keeping him and his children together. It would be very selfish me other wise...for what, for some good sex. That's not a good enough reason really, it would be immoral of me to leave here for sex.

I'm not sure how to blow the wingman off without starting war, but I think I can sappy my way out if I go about it right.

I appreciate your honesty, I know all your intentions are good and well and I trust them...it is ultimately about my babies.