I understand that any of these things can be done by someone who is not hypomanic, but for me, yesterday, I was very much upped while I did these things. I felt extremely good and euphoric and I did all of these things in about a 20 minute period. Plus it's a change from my usual behavior- normally I would not cut my own hair or write friends to tell them how I feel about them. I tend to be very guarded with my feelings towards people.

Today I feel hyper and happy but not euphoric. More back to normal, I guess. I'll have to look into the Zyprexa. I think no matter what the doctor prescribes, though, I'll have to stay on something for depression. The depression gets really severe. Also, I have had truly severe manic episodes in the past where I became almost incoherent and did really stupid things that I'm not going to mention here. Sigh. I understand that yesterday wasn't anything severe. I just wanted somewhere to talk about how I was feeling because it was kind of a pleasant, euphoric hypomania- which is really different than the severe, unpleasant mania I've experienced in the past.