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Old Feb 28, 2014, 10:42 AM
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Originally Posted by em96 View Post
For example, if I'm watching a movie and there's even a tiny scrap of skin (like a girl in her underwear or a bikini) I just freak out. If there's a sex scene I can't handle it at all. I get so embarrassed, I start to sweat, I get fidgety, angry and jealous and have to leave the room. I usually end up in tears, and it annoys me so much because I have no idea where it stems from.

It's getting to the point where it's putting a strain on my relationship with my boyfriend. I want to point out that he's a great guy and I've been with him for almost two years now, we get on really well generally but this is a huge issue. It's not that I don't trust him, but it's getting that we can't even go to the movies for fear that there's going to be a sex scene and I'll freak out, we can't go to the beach because there's girls in their underwear, I can't even watch music videos if there's slight nudity in them. It pisses him off so much and we've fallen out loads of times because of it, and it's not worth losing him over something so stupid.

He was tolerant at the start, but his patience with me is running thin and I don't blame him. He expects me to be able to "just deal with it", but I can't. He doesn't understand how much it hurts me, no matter how dumb it sounds. It just makes me so angry, like why do we need so much of it?

Another thing that bothers me is that I have no idea where it stems from. I've never been abused or raped or anything like that, and I have no problems when it comes to sex in real life. I'm not 100% happy with how I look (far from it actually) but I don't get what that would have to do with it!
If you're that unhappy with how you look, I would think that that has everything to do with it. In your post, you mention female nudity and bikinis, etc, you mention your boyfriend in connection with all this, you mention feeling "angry and jealous." It sounds to me as though your own body insecurities are the root of how you're feeling about this, and that you feel threatened by your boyfriend seeing other women. (Do you mind seeing male nudity? Do you mind seeing female nudity if it's someone you think is far less attractive than you are? What about elderly women? Would you mind your boyfriend going to the movies or the beach on his own? etc) If that's it, then the root issue isn't going to be solved until you work on your own self-image.