This is a great post. This is something I struggle with some days (while feeling my medicated 'calmed' self.) if/when my energy is stable I sometimes daydream about all of the excitement I no longer experience. Sometimes I feel proud of myself of all efforts Ive made sometimes I just feel, well, somewhat dead. It's funny, there are times when these thoughts are for only a second and there are times when the thoughts go for hours!
I try to remain gentle on myself. I try to accept each issue as they come. I will say staying strong to my medications have had more positive than not. But this little confidence has taken a long time to get to...
It's good to know I'm not alone and sure can relate to all PP, thanks