Feeling rather bad today, seems everyone is avoiding me online even though I just am trying to communicate. I really don't know what's wrong, the weather outside is spring like, the buds are blooming in the back garden, the birds are seeing, the weather is less cold, the first cut of the lawn was yesterday, I love the smell of grass yet it seems to be giving be no joy, today just feels as dark as the depths of the deep long winter. Meh