Sorry to keep obsessing about this...

My evaluation report said I probably have an ASD and recommended that I see a psychiatrist for more testing. He wasn't sure if I had enough restricted interests (which he never asked about) or repetitive movements (which he ignored some of), but when I saw him in person he said he would probably have diagnosed me as having Asperger's a year ago. Apparently my social problems are very clear, which is the part I was wondering about. I never imagined that my leg bouncing and interests would be not enough as they are what made me suspect this 10 years ago.

Today I saw a psychiatrist. She is having a similar difficulty and wants me to write down all my interests over time. This is bothering me because one of the reasons I chose to do this because I wasn't sure myself and now I'm being put in a position of having to prove it. I wanted it to be proven to me one way or another. I don't want to pretend to be something I'm not.

I don't know why I am doing this other than that my therapist want's me to do it so she knows how to treat me. I'm really growing uncomfortable with the whole thing. It seems like I don't fit anywhere now.